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Assalamualaikum :) I am not an adrenaline junkie but on that date, I gave my best shot, trying one giant thrill ride (only after being forced) and that seven minutes almost took my life. I closed my eyes throughout the duration. Yes, I know quite a waste of time, and definitely money. Aku tahu tu. I couldn't open my eyes, rumbling heart, feeling of curiosity a bit. Poorer, Si Kamu didn't help at all, "Angah buka lah mata! Cantik gila view dia. Jangan lah jadi penakut!" And which I did for less than 3 seconds, without cease, "Ya Allah, selamatkanlah aku!" Heh! Here I am, still alive. :) The first time I went to funfair, hem, I cannot remember when was it. But count them on my fingers, they must be less than five and the obligation not to have a go those bloodcurdling amusements, even though that sluggish big wheel which seemed less hazardous. I don't have enough bravery. Here, after so long without posting any picture, I bring you to see the sigh...

Assalamualaikum :) I can’t comprehend when friends I used to loaf with suddenly pass me up and the smile I give got an awkward reply. I don’t understand why and totally puzzled. And, usually it happens abruptly with different people but those who are connected to each other. So, I suspect there’s must be something. Perhaps the blameworthiness is on my part, spot it or not. But as I am just a human being like you, I suppose you to come and meet me personally, telling me the harm I caused you and the wound I could heal. But, nothing and no one ever has the guts to brazen it out. So, which part should I know how to apologize and make things better? Please tell me that. Or is it any rumor scatters all over the place that the reactions you give you think justified enough on my part? Still, you have no right to do so since I have my own right to be heard. Somehow the old maxim, “Kalau tiada angin masakan pokok bergoyang” is not a positive testimony, you know. That uncertainty of hearsa...

Assalamualaikum :) I’m writing this in library, alone. It is the hour most of friends in class and the view in here is ‘splendid’. Splendid enough to see the contentment of married couple facing me with the cheeky smile from the wife at the same time as the husband keeps teasing her. The newlyweds I think. Semoga bahagia ke anak cucu . :) Well, that’s not the precise story I want to convey. It is about being single-handedly, alone and unaccompanied. Vaguely I wonder why this moment seems so special. I feel truly calm though the library has small construction outside so it produces noise which supposed to get on my nerves. I don’t feel the heat, though. Besides, the vista and such noise help me enjoying my moment, feeling wedged among these people, especially they who sit in crowd for I feel more relief by sitting on my own. I am sure you know what I mean. We all need the compassion of human companionship but somehow we want to escape and be entirely by ourselves, through differen...

Assalamualaikum :) "In God's name shall be its course and it's berthing." - Hood:41 Bersabarlah bagi yang menerima bencana. Insya Allah kesabaranmu dicatit dengan sebanyak-banyak catitan di bahu kanan. Allah itu sifatnya bukanlah kejam dan tidak adil kerana Dia pernah berfirman kepada Nuh di sebalik kejadian bah yang dasyat satu masa dahulu. Apabila usai kejadian bah, Allah telah mengarahkan Nuh untuk membuat pinggan-pinggan dari tanah liat dan Nuh menghabiskan bertahun-tahun lamanya. Tetapi kemudiannya Allah mengarahkan Nuh untuk menghancurkan pula hasil-hasil tanah liat tersebut. Maka, bertanyalah Nuh akan Allah Yang Esa: "Why did You have me build up this huge pile if You were only intending for me to break them up again? Why did You make me take much trouble with this work which has been all in vain?" Dan Allah menjawab: "I did this to show you, oh Nuh, how it feels to a creator to destroy his own creation. You give so much value of these ...