I can clearly see now that I had been badly mistaken in my hope that a week of 'still knowing each other' is just something normal. But sadly say, it's not. I don't say I am in love with him. I mean, not yet. Yes. Like. Sort of. That feeling - as impossible as it seemed. How can I feel so strongly about him in such a short amount of time? I don't have the answer.
'Granted, if I met him earlier, I mean a year before, we probably are seeing each other now. Err! This is insane! How can after a week, I'd be so ready to spend the rest of my life with him? Hah?' Monologue.
Yes, I've tried to analyze the situation, to see if I am in the throes of infatuation.
He is smart, kind and funny. He is warm to his friends and family, yet no tendency to flirt with just about everyone. Okay? How can you be so sure, Sheriel Aizan? He is open-minded to new things, new ideas, different view-points. While he had his own opinions, he didn't dismiss those of others. What he didn't know about a topic, he was eager asking me - to learn. It's his intelligence and wit that drew me to him in the first place, but his humor held my attention.
I am going crazy. Yes, right now.
-February 22, 2008
Three years of chocolate candy sweetness and several times of chewing sour gums had sketched up my future. Now, I can see the decorations of Bohemian house, bright color filters painted everywhere, large portrait of us in white hangs casually attracting everyone to see. So his favorite masak lemak ikan patin is already served for lunch. And after lunch we sit on the couch, eating ice-cream together. We spend our times at weekend - badmintoning and so on and on. Too much imagination eh? Sorry.
-March 22, 2011